“-Which is your favorite month?
-July, because then it is real summer.”
The above answer I had given in a slam book in fifth or sixth grade (it's highly possible that in an explosion of self-satisfaction it was in my own slam book - I invented the question so that I could enthusiastically answer it myself). That mad was I about summer.
Admittedly, we were privileged. Though wage earners, our parents, aided by some divine grace, but also by a type of social welfare long gone, had managed to secure for us enviable living conditions: my sister and I were “packed” and “spirited” off to the country house of the mainland set of grandparents on the day after school was out, and we would return to Athens a couple of days before school reopened, back to the salt mines. The dreamy three months were distributed over three basic destinations: the seaside holiday village in Fthiotis (in central Greece), the little house on the island (an inheritance from the set of grandparents from Tinos), and the (free, thanks to mom's Social Security) summer camp in Dionysos, in the Attica mountain of Penteli. Add-ons included few-days-long escapes back to Athens for cultural activities – in the early years, “Holiday on Ice” at the Kallimarmaro (the Panathenaic Stadium); when I grew up a little, heavier culture began: Béjart Ballet and Sankai Juku (Butoh dance company) at the Herodeon (Odeon of Herodes Atticus), and of course Epidaurus, rain or shine. Oh, and some Cycladic island with Tinos as a starting point.
Thus fared our average middle-class family. So, I was mad about summer.
The life chapter that started with the end of high school looks like a long dive from beach to beach, from bar to bar, where seaweed, shots, friendships, “fallings-in-love”, existential and other quests get mixed up in a cocktail that leads from an usettled brain to calmness. You burn without mercy all your “extra lives” in random vehicles and entertaining acquaintances, but you continue to dive deeper and deeper because the propeler of desire incessanty pushes you forward. The way to maturity passes through the dyad of every learning experience, the two extremes of pleasure and pain. Besides, the beach where, as a child, you thought you were in paradise, was the same one that taught you the pain from the sting of the jellyfish and the weever fish.
No matter how many losses and harsh reversals they were encompassing, the summers of that period didn't cease to remain variations on the same theme of the archetypical sacred, privileged childhood summer.
The other August
Then came grad school in America and with it the first radical transformation of summer: August turned into the month of the beginning of the academic year; the September “back-to-school” notion moved a month earlier. In the first year I arrived to settle down at the Columbia University dorm (and in the new continent) on August 23rd, with classes starting in just two weeks. The following year I returned from my vacation in Greece back to New York a week earlier – on Δεκαπενταύγουστος (August 15th, Assumption Day, the quintessential summer Greek holiday), whereas in the third and final year of my MFA, I transferred my return to NYC and to campus as early as possible – I spent the whole month of August there. Who knew: the Tinian tradition of saying “Have a happy winter!” as soon as the Assumption Day ceremony comes to its end in the afternoon of August 15th (a line that sounded surreal to my teenage ears - “But we still have a month until schools reopen!”) was meant to find its confirmation in the US educational system.
Very soon came yet another summer metamorphosis – one that brought the sweetness of harvest. Most of the shows I happened to direct in New York took place within summer festivals - Fringe NYC International Festival, Between the Seas Festival, Euripides Festival, Salty Women Festival. Summer then offers the orgasm of creation – you harvest the fruits of your sweat (double, thanks to the extra level of difficulty because of the heat), and you have the satisfaction that during the months that used to be out of school, you not only worked hard, but you also shared your artistic work with audiences.
This second metamorphosis meant festive theatre “summers” – in quotation marks because summer, no matter how joyful the metropolis might turn it, deep down is never real for a Greek if it doesn't have a dose of Cyclades.
As ye sow, so shall ye reap
With this and that, we arrived in 2024. How and when did the excursion I didn't want to end transform not only into an obstacle I have to jump over but also into an enemy I have to vanquish? As is often the case with changes, they work silently but systematically, and they finally reveal themselves causing you sadness because you come face to face with the transfiguration.
Although this year's summer started again with a New York performance, it then got burried in the Attica desert. We, the travelers of Athens, trapped by the unprecedented fetter of the temperature that won't drop not even at night for weeks in a row, tried to bring the island of Aeolos to the urban balcony and “the pine tree covered Dionysos slopes” (as goes the summer camp march) to the living room: we would take post-midnight bucket showers in our bathing suits on the veranda (the same way we rinse ourselves from salty water on the rooftop in Chora, Tinos) and we dragged our mattresses to the living room where taps sound out close to dawn so that we could take advantage of even the last drop of cool.
Those of us who resort to air-conditioning only as the ultimate solution and after first exhausting any other less energy-devouring and less contributing to the over-warming of the planet (and the city) cooling medium (sheets hung on balconies to block the sun, fans in the rooms, sealing of the apartment in daytime, trapping of whatever available coolness at night), even we, this year almost surrendered. As for the last stronghold of the once-upon-a-time venerated Athenian staycation, open-air-movie-theatre-going without limits, this too fell. The walls are boiling to such a degree that you think you will be devoured by their “jaws.”
“Focus on the tiniest part of reality over which you can have control”, some sages say. We go out after midnight to walk. In the searing Ambelokipi streets, the cats, exhausted from the heat, have aligned their bodies with the tiniest crack of cool in corners and crevices. What am I able to do? I can put out fresh water for them, and I can offer them my moral support.
Now that the fateful date of Δεκαπενταύγουστος has come and gone, I'm sorry I let the wide Greek summer slip through my fingers without drinking not even a drop of Aegean. I was hoping to at least stay with the memories of camping on the hardwood floor and of splashing about with a view to the President Hotel, but now that even the Penteli mountain has burned down, I don't want to remember anything.
I look for the resurrection of the forests. And next year may we be on the Trans-Siberian.
This essay first appeared in Greek in the TA NEA newspaper (in print and online) on August 24, 2024.
It was reproduced by HellasJournal.com.
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